I’m Not Pregnant. I Just Look & Feel That Way.

Very shortly after giving birth I was back to my normal weight.  I felt great.  I was happy.  The acne that came with the pregnancy was gone and my skin looked healthy.  My hair fell nicely.  I was rested because the baby slept well and I with her, and because I wasn’t working for a few months.  But over the past three years, I’ve worked my way back up to nearly the weight I was prior to giving birth.  I dress like it, too.

When someone is sick, you want them to eat and fatten up so you eat along with them.  That’s what I did with my grandma.  I’m pretty sure we ate a slice of cake or pie every night for a couple of months.  And, since I’m a stress eater, and because I had a lot going on at work, I was pigging out there, too.

I was happy to be getting by so well in life, considering the circumstances. I didn’t really bother to look in the mirror.

More recently Prozac and the Depo shot were the contributing factors to the escalation in the digits on my scale.  I think it was just last week that I looked in the mirror and saw how round I really am.  I have no excuse, I’m not pregnant.  I just look that way.  I feel that tired, too.


About inspiredbybrooke

I lost my mom and my grandma to cancer, along with three other people I loved dearly. I decided to start this blog to capture my thoughts about where I've been, where I'm going and what I've learned from life. It's opened my eyes to all the other blogs out there and people I can relate to. Now I know I'm not so alone after all.
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